Friend, I know the excuses you make.
And you don't have time for them any more.
You are growing out of them, dear one. They are no longer serving you. SURE they protected you! They comforted your tender little soul when someone hurt you, and took away your joy. I know it. We build the fortress we need, and its how we survive, dammit.
But sweet friend! Look at you! Look at how far you've come!
I know its scary. I know its hard, but you know what? Its also important. YOU are important, your creativity and your heart are important. Your story is important. There are so many things you are meant to share, sweet thing.
I fucking know it.
But for me, my stuck place? It was painting.
I graduated with a degree in Art History and Painting, but when confronting a blank canvas, I would endure an almost phobic reaction directly related to past trauma I was dealing with, I would enter fight or flight mode. I was later told my physical reaction was diagnosable as PTSD.
On my darkest days I was really frustrated with this 'flaw' in myself because I felt so alone in it, I felt no one else understood how hard it was to go through a trauma and lose my artistic vehicle, to not feel like I could paint again, it felt like something was taken from me.
I needed someone to help me navigate intentional/creative healing when I was feeling terrible and I couldn't find that resource anywhere (that whole be who you needed when you were younger thing is where I'm going with this).
We've all heard of the words Impostor Syndrome, and there were some DEEP PANIC STRUGGLES I had when it felt like maybe I shouldn't talk to people about healing while I still operate under the word itself.
It is a journey, a never ending thing.
It is a path that takes intention and mindfulness, and self care and a lot of love, but it is NOT a stamp of arrival on your life-ticket. If you keep thinking of it as a destination or something you're never going to achieve you're always going to be at war with yourself and that's a problem.
My Ma says (about big and scary things) that its ALL manageable, we eat an elephant one bite at a time and all that. The first step is always the scariest, and after that its all much easier.
Unit One - Pain Points - the things that stop you from creating, the beginning of the soul searching and shifting away from creative paralysis.
Unit Two - Learning Yourself - learn to see the bravery you have inside you, rewire your brain so that you are constantly impressed at yourself. Its important.
Unit Three - Permission not Perfectionism - the empowering mindset shift to liberate your heart and soul from the things holding you back. Hint, its almost always perfectionism.
Unit Four - Inspiration not Comparison - the important and HUGE difference between the two, and why its necessary to learn your limits.